I always see these people out there who seem to just have it all figured out. They’re always on some kind of adventure, they always have some kind of motivational speech for people who want to live the wanderlust lifestyle, always demoting the 9-5 and promoting the spontaneous impulsive adventures.
I’m all for it. I love the adventure. I’ve been on that side, and now I’m actually doing the opposite. The adult in me, is creeping into my life ever so subtly, and it’s forcing me to put away my spontaneity for a moment.
Naturally, a 2 day weekend or an evening, is nowhere near enough time to do the things on my bucket list.
And nothing is more depressing than sitting in and watching someone else live the life you want for yourself. So what do you do? Sit & pout?
Honestly, I did, momentarily. The funny thing is, things actually only started to get worse when I looked at my situation in a negative light. It’s almost as if negativity is contagious. The more I looked down on things, the more things started looking down.
Maybe it was God chiseling on my spirit, doing one thing after another to bring me to my breaking point. (*insert list of awful events here*). Eventually, I finally broke. One evening, I just cried it all out. I don’t know why, but it felt so great to stop pretending to be strong. The reality is, I wasn’t okay.
So if you feel like hell, then feel it deeply. I think it’s necessary to go through a season of weakness. The important thing is not to forget that that’s all it is, a season (Ecclesiastes 3:1-5).
Everyone goes through it. That dry, do-nothing stage. Some longer than others. But eventually, that’s what pushes you to do something you wouldn’t otherwise do. There are a select few who have it good. Their seasons run short, and then they’re back to the good life. Some of us aren’t so lucky, and run long, weary, dry seasons before we find ourselves again.
With that being said, I’m proud to announce a new season. Not only literally but metaphorically as well (btw, happy Spring folks, welcome to longer days and shorter nights!). Though my long-term trips are on hold at the moment, that doesn’t mean that I can’t enjoy the small things in my home town. I’m hungry for adventure, why not explore & live life to the fullest even locally while I’m still young?
While I was abroad, there was only one thing I regretted most. Essentially, that was the lack of close family & friends to share my experience with. Here, now, I have them. Regardless of what we’re doing, whether we’re out exploring, eating, or sitting on my bed in total silence, we’re just happy enjoying one another’s company.
With my best friend (Anna) back in town from South Carolina, I was finally able to gather ALL 3 of my favorite people in the whole universe, and go white wall hunting. Yes, we were literally hunting down blank white walls in Downtown.
Why? Because females.
Conveniently enough, it didn’t take us too long to find one… (The brick wall was a bonus, yey!)
Thanks for keeping me in check 😉
And to the rest of you, cheers to whatever season you may be in 🍷